Why Did My Pastor Have to Die?

The Pain of Letting Go... Behind the Cameras

by Chameeka N. Smith

Why Did My Pastor Have to Die?
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Why Did My Pastor Have to Die?

The Pain of Letting Go... Behind the Cameras

by Chameeka N. Smith

Published Dec 24, 2016
89 Pages
Genre: RELIGION / Christian Life / Death, Grief, Bereavement



 

Book Details

The Pain of Letting Go

Sadness, disappointment, dreams shattered…why my pastor, why my man of God? There were so many false prophets, teachers, and preachers, so why did my pastor have to die? These were the words that continued to linger in my head after learning the news of my pastor’s transition. He was strong, a pioneer of many facets of ministry that weren’t seen in his day. He impacted the city, community, state, and ultimately the world. He loved God’s people and we loved him. In October of 2012, I asked the question “Why did my pastor have to die?” It was the question that lingered in the minds of so many members who truly believed that this would not happen. We prayed, fasted, worshiped, and even received prophecies of how the man of God would recover…. We had the faith, we trusted God, and yet he died. Walk with me as I journey through this painful and tragic experience but find hope and an answer to my question “Why did my pastor have to die?” If you are still going through the grieving process, there is hope, joy, and peace on the other side of the pain of losing a pastor. The story is not over and the true legacy can begin….

 

Book Excerpt

I can still remember the church parking lot being full of cars. I remember this because the church parking lot had not looked this way in months. The spirit of grief was so heavy that I could literately feel it in the parking lot. I can recall the drastic difference of feelings from my closed car door to opening my car door in the parking lot. I felt the heaviness, sadness, despair, guilt, shame, and depression as I walked up the hill and into the church building. The message was clear that our pastor had died. I can still remember my initial frustration as I saw this full parking lot of cars. Where have the people been for months? Are these people here to now mourn the loss with us or become spectators in our tragic loss? I entered the sanctuary to more grief, pain, tears, and loneliness. I watched as grown men cried, bowed their heads, and succumbed under the pressure of the moment. As I sat in the audience, I looked at the full balcony in amazement as I had not seen a full balcony in months. Some people did come as spectators, others still wanted to just comfort the first family. I watched as leaders truly tried not to cry while giving announcements or singing Pastor’s favorite song. The atmosphere was simply heavy with grief.

 

About the Author

Chameeka N. Smith

Known as the little girl getting her hair combed in the motion picture, nominated for 11 Academy Awards in 1985, Chameeka N. Smith continues her journey as an educator, motivational speaker and educational specialist for at risk youth. Chameeka has earned her Bachelor degree in Occupational Safety and Health, Master of Science in Vocational Industrial Education, Master of Arts in Teaching in Technology Education and Post Master Certificate in School Administration. Her true passion excels in working with first generation, low income students and families to expose them to postsecondary educational opportunities. She is committed to educating generations through biblical principles, college access and career readiness. For more information visit http://teachers2leaders.com/home