In the world of child abuse and trauma, silence is never golden; silence is deadly. The young Brad Fielding is forced to understand the bitter meaning of those words early in his life. Unable to tell anyone the secrets of his home life, he turns to his behavior for help in communicating with the adult world. In an effort to gain help for his mom, Brad defiantly stands in stark opposition to every force and institution that confronted his misbehavior. Completely misunderstood, he is taken from home where he sacrifices his childhood; but never his heart. Working to his capacity to stabilize, Brad always keeps alive the hope of one day finding at least one normal adult who cares about him, and in so doing, he discovers the secret that children who misbehave do not need counseling; their family needs therapy.
Not Me, Not Ever will expose the lasting trauma inherent to an abusive history. Coming to know Brad Fielding and the symbols he held on to will give you strength to not only say, "Never", but to mean exactly what you say and always what you do in the face of abuse.
Madness comes in many shapes and sizes. Most often madness makes itself visible in people's decisions and behaviors, but not always. For some, madness hides deep within the confines of an isolated crypt in the bottom of their heart. There it silently lurks and stabs away at the impulses and desires that control their decisions, actions, and anxieties. For most people, the impulses and desires that govern their likes and dislikes, for those whose impulses fall within normal ranges, the process of liking one person more than another is relatively easy. For some it's simply a matter of personal preference. This, unfortunately, is not true for all people. This, unfortunately, was not true for Brad. For Brad Fielding, liking one person more than another was a matter of survival.
About Henri J. Lavoie
Henri J. Lavoie draws on his experiences and education which includes degrees from Providence College and St. Meinrad School of Theology, to fashion a compelling novel that explores the whys and the wherefores of confronting, understanding and overcoming our deepest conflicts. Having served as a Catholic priest, case manager and clinician, Henri is now married and living with his family in Smithfield, Rhode Island. His impressions and writings will equally satisfy those seeking a good read or those seeking professional insight into what can help when life goes wrong.
In the world of child abuse and trauma, silence is never golden; silence is deadly. The young Brad Fielding is forced to understand the bitter meaning of those words early in his life. Unable to tell anyone the secrets of his home life, he turns to his behavior for help in communicating with the adult world. In an effort to gain help for his mom, Brad defiantly stands in stark opposition to every force and institution that confronted his misbehavior. Completely misunderstood, he is taken from home where he sacrifices his childhood; but never his heart. Working to his capacity to stabilize, Brad always keeps alive the hope of one day finding at least one normal adult who cares about him, and in so doing, he discovers the secret that children who misbehave do not need counseling; their family needs therapy.
Henri J. Lavoie draws on his experiences and education which includes degrees from Providence College and St. Meinrad School of Theology, to fashion a compelling novel that explores the whys and the wherefores of confronting, understanding and overcoming our deepest conflicts. Having served as a Catholic priest, case manager and clinician, Henri is now married and living with his family in Smithfield, Rhode Island. His impressions and writings will equally satisfy those seeking a good read or those seeking professional insight into what can help when life goes wrong.