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After her daughter’s death in 2000, Kay Armstrong Baker began journaling, compelled to express herself in writing as a way to cope with this unspeakable event in her life.

"Unspeakable,a Mother's Journey" is a compilation of her journal entries—a personal account from the heart of her grief, despair, anger, and hope.
It’s an honest, heart-wrenching, yet hopeful book that bravely deals with what most parents fear the most—the loss of a child.

A child’s death leaves a tremendous void for parents, an emptiness that settles within the very core of their being. Kay shares her personal experience in the hope that other grieving parents can gain comfort from it, and know that they are not alone in this convoluted journey called grief.

Her book is also for family and friends and those who support parents who stumble along this path of the unspeakable.

"Another visit to the ER!
A security guard took us to the "family room". I knew this wasn't the usual procedure and was beginning to worry that Courtney had lost the baby. Her roommate and some of her co-workers from the ambulance company were there. There was also a policeman which I thought was unusual. He asked us if we were Courtney's parents. We told him we were. He then excused himself to get the doctor.

John and I will never forget the next scene. The doctor came into the room, sat down and said, "Courtney has died". Just like that. "Courtney has died.".

We have replayed that scene over and over again in our minds. It felt like an electric shock had coursed through my body! We felt disbelief and dismay. What we had feared for so long had finally happened."